Conversations with Jerry - self acceptance, life after death, and healing

In this post, I'll use my experience with Ringo (see Part 1), to demonstrate self-forgiveness,a powerful tool in service to inner healing. There are four steps to this process.

Step 1. I give voice to my feelings of sadness, frustration, anger and fear. I honor my process by creating a safe space in which I can allow whatever I'm feeling to come forward. I may cry, scream, yell or laugh; I just let it come out without judging it. I do this for myself and with myself in the privacy of a safe space. As I begin to feel complete with this part of the process, I become aware of my judgments, misconceptions and misunderstandings.

Step 2. I identify the judgments, misconceptions and misunderstandings:

a. Ringo shouldn't have died when he did.
b. I was responsible for Ringo's death.
c. My mother should have been home.
d. If my mother had been home, this wouldn't have happened.
e. Death means Ringo's gone for good. Death is bad.
f. I would have been better off if this hadn't happened.

Step 3. I practice compassionate self-forgiveness: I start by closing my eyes, putting my hands over my heart and, dropping into a place of compassion, I forgive myself for the judgments, misconceptions and misunderstandings I've made. In this example, here's what I'd say: (I like to say it aloud.)

a. I forgive myself for judging that Ringo shouldn't have died when he did.
b. I forgive myself for buying into the misunderstanding that I was responsible for Ringo's death.
c. I forgive myself for judging my mother as wrong for not being where I thought she should have been.
d. I forgive myself for falsely assuming that if my mother had been present, this wouldn't have happened.
e. I forgive myself for buying into the misconception that there is such a thing as death and that it's bad.
f. I forgive myself for buying into the misunderstanding that I would have been better off if this hadn't happened.

While I may become aware of more judgments as I go deeper, this will suffice as an example.

Once I’ve cleared the judgments through self-forgiveness, I’m left with . . . SPACE. And what do I do with the space?

Step 4. I fill it with loving, self-affirming truth that reflects who I am today. Continuing with my example, I'd say:

a. Everything is in divine order. No one dies a moment too soon or too late.
b. Ringo, on some level, chose his length of stay on earth. We all do. I chose to share this experience with Ringo based on wisdom that’s beyond the logic of my mind. Experiences aren’t good or bad, right or wrong—they just are.
c. I can’t know that my mother wasn’t where she needed to be. And I trust that, because everything is unfolding in divine order, she was precisely where she needed to be. My mother was doing the best she knew how to do . . . and I was doing the best I knew how to do, too.
d. I can’t know with certainty what would or could have happened if my mother had been present. I can only guess.
e. Life is eternal. What I called “death” then, is “transitioning” now. When we transition, we refocus our energy from physical to non-physical reality. It’s not good or bad. It’s an integral part of life. I am grateful for Ringo’s love and devotion. I love you, Ringo!
f. Had I not experienced this, I can't say with certainty that I would have been better off. I can only guess. I trust that everything that happens is for my highest good. It’s up to me to make the most of every situation. Given that each and every experience has contributed to who I am today . . and I love who I am . . I am grateful for loving Ringo and for the experiences we shared.

That's the process. When I place a judgment—either on myself, another, or on a situation—and I forgive myself for having placed the judgment in the first place, I move out of duality and into acceptance. When I complete the process, I feel lighter, as if a weight’s been lifted or I’ve been washed clean. There’s a shift in consciousness that’s discernable. While the concept of self-forgiveness is in the mind, the experience of self-forgiveness is in the heart. Self-forgiveness is an expression of self-compassion and it moves me into my heart.

Remember when you were a baby and you could do no wrong—or you were with a baby and they could do no wrong? That’s what I’m talking about. I think that’s how God sees us, because God doesn’t judge us. Sometimes, as I’m practicing self-forgiveness and I'm holding an intention to move into my heart, I think of myself as that baby, or I think of my children as babies—and my heart expands. My priority is acceptance—of myself, others, and of what is. The best thing I can do to contribute to the planet is to resolve my own issues as quickly as possible, accessing the highest level of consciousness available to me. When I practice self-forgiveness, I’m cultivating an attitude of self-compassion and I'm returned to my Self.

I hope this is helpful. If you have questions or comments, please post. Remember: outer experience is a reflection of inner reality. Change what’s going on within and your outer experience will naturally change.

Copyright © 2009 by Irene Kendig

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Comment by Irene Kendig on April 18, 2009 at 10:18am
Thank you for taking this information to heart. It seems so simple, doesn't it? And it is! It's not what happens to us that causes suffering; it's our judgments. This is the key to the kingdom! Anytime I'm upset, I just search for the judgments I've placed on myself, on another, or on a situation and forgive myself. I'm immediately restored to my authentic nature, which is peaceful, joyful and loving.

As for the timeline of the book, my editor will be finished with the final edit on Monday, April 20th. The interior designer is already working on the layout of the book. It won't be long! Thanks for your support!
Comment by ROSA M. Solis on April 18, 2009 at 12:50am
Wow, I'm speechless. I realized that I have suffered so much and so intensely. I wish I had known all this wisdom about self-forgiveness. My burdens wouldn't have followed me for such a long time if I had only been aware that my judgements were crushing the beautiful care-free spirit that I was born with. Some time ago I read a book that explain about life in such a new way that I just couldn't put the book down. Well, this book sounds like a twin to that other book! I'm sure that when yours comes out, I won't be able to put it down until I finish it! Please hurry up with it!
Comment by Jennifer King on March 3, 2009 at 12:53pm
These posts were encouraging and affirming for me to read this morning. I say "hallelujah!" as I walk out in the sunshine carrying your perspectives in my heart!
Comment by stephen witmer on February 27, 2009 at 7:54am
both are wonderful

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